Does anyone else lie in bed at 2:30am filled with the crippling fear that they’re never going to accomplish anything in life and fail miserably or is that just me
I have more shit here than I thought. I keep bumping into my shit while packing up his shit. hah damn. Packing all night. Finishing touches tomorrow. Then outta this life and burning bridges Wednesday. Goodbye old hell Welcome new hell. One day I swear my life wont be so hellish and I’ll eventually be completely content.
& I have to be up at 9am to head to Pennsylvania with my G-ma to go grocery shopping…yeah grocery shopping in another state…who knows. Then I get to have a lovely
argument conversation with the boy about how I dislike his ex always being around after all that’s said and done I get to go indulge in some cake for my Padres birthday. Hopefully somewhere in all of that I will be able to hop on a quad with a few friends and get muddy. Yeah I should head to bed and prepare for a hellish day. Goodnight. -Sincerely Nikki
Ps: 8 more days til Florida
boredom is about to set in.
I used to have a million eminem posters all over my room but when I moved I said to myself that its time to retire all of my posters so now they are chillin in my closet…but chris surprised me with this poster a couple weeks ago so now its hanging right behind my bed haha how can I resist eminems amazing. =p
& I think its funny that I can’t sleep for shit at night so sometimes I sleep with the radio on, that way I can’t get too interested with the tv…so the other night I’m wide awake tossing and turning and one of his songs came on, I instantly became relaxed and started to get sleepy. I forgot how much his music calms me down even if his song is loud and angry it still calms me. <3 love him